Conquering my fears

Assalamualaikum,

I have lots of fears or phobias. I have phobias on height, ants and scary movies. I even have phobias of drivers (with me as the passenger) coming up to close to the car up front, in which I will press an invisible brake or cover my face with my hands.

I used to have phobia against my design lecturer years ago, but when I met him again few years later, I've conquered the fear and make amends with him. It was so bad, that I used to take detour if I saw him walking towards me, hide in the toilet if he is in my class, pretend to be sick just to be away from him and so on. But that's settled now and am friends with him.

Of the other phobias above, I have conquered my fear of height. When did it disappear? When I went up the Eiffel Tower in Paris. As my Site Manager would say, to conquer your fear of height, you must climb up a high space. And it sure did. Otherwise I feel that I would fall.

Now I'm trying to conquer my phobias of scary movies, ghost story @ thriller. I watch with open eyes now even though the volume is turned down to zero..ahaha. Usually I watch those kind of movies between my fingers or behind a pillow. You see, those kind of movies affect me so bad that I will dreamt about it & have difficulty sleeping for days. Maybe because I'm an INFJ it affects me so much. Those kind of movies sound & visual don't go well together for me.

As for ants, I leave it be. I have phobias not against the one ant, but the whole swarm of it crawling on walls / floors during those time when ants lay eggs. I feel like ants crawling all over me from head to toe..yuck!!! *geli*